Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Let there be light

So, for the last couple weeks I've been like Artax sinking in the swap of sadness (you know, Atreyu's horse from the Never Ending Story) with little to no hope things will turn around for us at the Love Shack. That's kind of how I roll, I suppose. Worse case scenario is always right what I start thinking. It's really stupid and probably accounts for about 80% of my anxiety. But it's part of my brain I can't rewire.

Well, today we got a little piece of news that will help things out around here. Now we can get things straightened out until full time work comes for the old man... Which I am positive will happen soon. The old man keeps telling me, we just need to put one foot in front of the other. That's what we have been doing. We've talked about everything in depth, till our eyes are ready to bleed and I think we might just have a good plan...

Just like that I found energy to do stuff around the house and find a little bit of hope, instead of curling up with depression and shutting out the world. The storm clouds are lifting a bit and now it's just slightly overcast. Yippee!

The old man's birthday is this Wednesday and then comes Mothers Day and then our middlest birthday. So again, it will be a whirlwind for the next couple weeks at The Shack. I love doing stuff for the guys birthdays. It's so fun to gush with love for them. We have a lot of fun stuff planned. It will be nice to spend time with the boys and our families. 

Now if we could just get The Love Shack straightened up and ready for the summer, everything will be in order (for the most part).
I'm hopeful we are coming out of this dark cloud and we've got the ball rolling. I'm looking forward to BBQ's in the back yard with friends and family. We've talked to the boys about camping once they get out of school and I think that will be a lot of fun. Also I'm itching to get back up to my Grandma and Grandpas house, where everything seems right in the world. 

Perspective is a funny thing. When I got up this morning all I could see was doom and gloom. But tonight, I see a endless amount of possibilities and I think we might just be alright here at The Love Shack. It's not to say that we are out of the woods just yet. But at least we have a bit of a plan and we can hold on just a little bit longer. 

I'm can't tell you how lucky I am to have the support I do from my friends, family and Old Man. I know the path that has led me here has been long and twisted. But for tonight, I have my love, my family and the hope that we might just be okay.

One Love <3